Posts Tagged ‘Employment’

Ugh, the New Year – Everyone looks forward to a fresh new start but alas I look this year with disdain – we’re staring down the barrel of this foreclosure hearing in 20 days…and from everything I am reading online that gives us roughly a month (20-days until the hearing + the 10 days until the sale) before we’ll have to vacate.  Was hoping for more time – but it doesn’t seem like it’s going to happen…I could just cry and puke all at the same time…we worked hard to buy our home – spent 6 stressful months trying to find the home – get the offer in – and then finally close – only to have one piece of bad luck after another thrown our direction..and now its culminating in this.

We’ve outlined how much we can swing each month for rent, $750 – $775 no more, and that leaves us looking at a 2 Bedroom place with my husband and I sharing the living room as our bedroom…how much does that suck?!?!  We really want to stay in the kids’ school districts at least through the end of the school year – BUT the hearing isn’t before a Judge – nope it’s before a Clerk who is just checking paperwork to ensure everything is as it should be…great…

We’re looking for places to live – I found a handful – the problems are going to be:

a) coming up with a deposit – we outlined last night how much we need to set aside each week for the deposit until we have to sign a lease and move but if its getting pushed up I’m now going to have to squalor away every cent I can and

b) the animals – I’m NOT willing to re-home any of them – I can’t be convinced otherwise – and with two large breed dogs its not going to be easy…

So right now we’re a jumble of unknowns and anyone who knows me knows this is DRIVING ME INSANE!!!!

So then over Christmas we’re with our families and BOTH sets of parents are asking us the same questions about where are we going to live? If we couldn’t pay our mortgage how are we going to pay rent? And asking my husband how his job search is going – alright let me talk about this one for a moment – he’s looking, he even got asked to join a company and be a tax preparer for tax season – BUT the caveat would be he’d have to be in training ALL day starting tomorrow for 6-Days, then he’d probably be working full-time…wonderful, right? WRONG! We have no means for daycare – meaning I leave for work before any place opens so there’s no where for our daughter to go next week while she’s still on her intercession – our son returns to school Monday – AND there’d be no way for my hubby to pick them up in the afternoon – he still doesn’t drive and he doesn’t have a vehicle…so he had to turn it down.  As well meaning as some of the questions are we’ve looked at this from all angles and with my weird long days right now we just can’t do daycare/after school care etc.  It’s not the money – it’s the getting the kids to-and-from – so now my husband feels even more guilty because to him the messages came across that he was lazy and not willing to work – ugh – told him that I need him at home right now – his job is to take care of house/kids/animals – which he’s done with grace this week – even going so far as to learn how to cook some of our favorite meals!

Right now I have no answers – we’re trying to find a place to live – we don’t have a real timeline of anything at the moment – and until after that hearing we’re not going to know exactly what’s going to happen.

We do know that we aren’t going back to MD – I am not walking away from my new job – as it could lead me to other positions similar and allow me to provide for the family – as scary as a thought that is – this type of contract/field work doesn’t fall out of the sky and its something I have to jump on now vs. later.  I don’t know what my Contract Company is going to have me do once this project is up – I’ll start asking for a new position as close to the end of the project as I can – but again that unknown.

So I hope Everyone was Safe in their Celebrations Last Night – I am Still Feeling Very Overwhelmed and Wish I could Give the answers so many are looking for…but alas I don’t have them.

Good Morning Kids!

Another day in the trenches here…seriously getting to the point I want to just bail…

Why?

Simple – my replacement hasn’t officially started yet?!? Meaning she’s in office in Tampa BUT her background hasn’t cleared YET and she’s unable to come to site for her training…um WTF??! So I send my boss an email last Friday getting all the pertinent info together, find out her background is still pending and that they’ll need me to stay until 10/9! Um WTF?!?! I told them I’d need to think about it – told HR this morning I’m ok with staying until 10/9 but at that point my obligation to the company ends.  So now my replacement will be here next week for training and I am expected to plaster on a smile and pretend all is right with the world…which we all know is NOT the case!

Then the icing on the cake – boss lady asks me to request my replacement’s access to all of the systems I use…um talk about a SMACK in the face! Ugh…no class I swear! Sent the following the HR this morning:

Good Morning HR Manager –

Just checking in  – Boss Lady’s asked me to stay until 10/9, which I am ok with, not 100% ok, but ok.

Also, I understand the need to get my replacement up and running as soon as possible, but yesterday Kim was asking me to request her accesses to the XX Systems – frankly I feel like that’s a huge slap in the face.  I already am unsure about how I am handling things emotionally, but to do that is just one step too far.

I will say this, 10/9 is my absolute last day.  I don’t feel I owe anything to Company past that point.  I am also telling potential employers my 1st available day will be 10/11, and that’s been a bit of a stretch as is.

Thanks!

She responded that she’d look into it…AND she sent me the info on the career connection people I can talk to about a transition – looked at the website/registered/they are confirming eligibility but it just seems that looking for a job these days is more about how you can out-do your competition vs. who is the best eligible employee for the position…I am NOT one who uses LinkedIn and this place is PUSHING it seriously!  Seriously they want you to list accomplishments on your resume and anyone who is anyone knows Admin’s very RARELY have any serious accomplishments outside of streamlining systems and processes we can list.  So I have ZERO because at every turn my company has fought anything I wanted to suggest, thus NO accomplishments.

I am thinking this transition will be more getting myself out of the Corporate world and into something I want to do vs. need.  If that makes sense, I really am getting sick of sitting at a desk all damn day and reporting to some boss and company who could frankly care less about me a person and an employee…so I’ll be doing some serious thinking over the coming weeks to try and figure out how I can make money, support my clan, and still do what I want.

Can we tell I am feeling really down on myself?!?!

Only uplift in my life right now is that my workouts are rocking! I’ve been able to increase the weight I lift all around and my Crochet stuff has improved vastly…seriously check out some of my recent work here: YarntoAfghanCreations.

Can I go home and hide now?

Over the last almost four years I’ve held the same job…day in and day out the same thing…my daily breakdown looks a bit like this:

  • Come into work
  • Boot up Computer
  • While computer ‘wakes up’ – make breakfast
  • Return to desk with breakfast, log into work systems, peruse through emails that arrived over night, flag items requiring my attention for follow-up
  • Eat Breakfast – while eating check personal email, check in with MyFitnessPal and Facebook
  • Open up report I manage – filter for Submitted Items
  • Open up System email box, using emails check against report for anything that’s been approved – marking the Submitted to Approved when checked
  • Remaining Submitted Items are then checked against client system for PM Approval
  • Go through daily tasks completing steps for unfinished items from previous day
  • Go through daily calendar reminders for unfinished items for previous day
  • Noon = Lunch
  • Mon-Tues I key in items from Report to Client system
  • Wed I check for Approved Items off of Another Report, I then check for status in our system, and then I compare this report against our system for items not completed the previous week that would now be completed; if items have not been completed yet I send emails to the field team requesting completion, if one has been done for a personal item I ask the employee for payment status; if it’s on an expense report and not completed I flag it for follow-up the following week.
  • Thurs I run a submitted-unpaid report – what this is is a report that shows all timecards/expenses added to our system but not completed by the field team; if items from the previous week still are not completed I’ll send an email to the employee requesting status of completion.
  • Friday is completion of anything not done Mon – Thurs

Every day – Every week is the same.

Throw in there sometimes I answer the same friggin 10 questions over and over again

  • I send email requesting status of an expense report/timecard that is showing in our system as pending – employee comes back with “I sent it in, I don’t understand why it hasn’t been approved” or “I sent it in and it was approved by my Service Manager” – when I tell them I was looking at the item at the SAME time I was composing the message they have no response
  • Or the employee’s expense report is missing something and our payroll team short pays the expense report creating an addendum; I’ll send the employee an email requesting they follow the steps (CLEARLY OUTLINED IN AN INSTRUCTION KIT ALSO SENT OVER AT THE SAME TIME) to reopen the expense report and send it back in – the employee will come back to me with “I resent the missing receipts in, I don’t understand why this addendum was generated” I’ll ask them if they FIRST followed my instructions and I’ll get one of two answers “No” meaning he’s admitting he failed to read my email; or “What instructions?” meaning he’s admitting he perused my email but failed to open the attachment
  • Or they won’t allow the CC Transactions to filter to our system and expense them preemptively – thus creating MORE work because they were impatient…when asked about this they act like confused monkey’s – it’s frustrating…

I could go on, but I won’t…in the meantime of dealing with all of the above stupidity I STILL do not receive paid time off and benefits – and over the last almost four years that has equated to 289.25 hours or $4,338.75 of loss pay! (pre-tax pay)…I swear to GAWD this money could have meant so much to us and kept us in line financially…

All of the above + a total lack of respect by my manager I have loss all desire to be here…

So where does that leave me?

Time to find a new job…

Which in my market is damn near impossible for someone of my experience level – God forbid I demand to make more than minimum wage for work that some employer’s see as necessary but don’t see fit to pay well…I don’t know how companies get by without their administrative staff, I really don’t.  But I digress.  So therefore, trying to find a job right now is proving difficult, but I am looking and there’s several criteria that needs to be met:

  • Minimum $16 – $20.00/hr pay
  • Next level management/supervisory level job
  • Benefits/Paid Time Off

Something I would like is Flexibility – having two children with ADHD and one with Oppositional Defiance means my need to be out of the office for Dr’s and therapy appointment’s is higher than normal…and I need to be able to go without justifying them.  So I’m not applying for every job I remotely qualify for…it’s only been a handful thus far, but it’s time for more income.

Ok rant over!  Back to our regularly scheduled programming.