Archive for October, 2015

And I am still VERY bitter…evidently.

Thought I’d put it all behind me then my previous employers’ outplacement company called this morning and I just about bit the poor woman’s head off…ugh…

She was trying to get me to do a one hour online Orientation Webinar and I literally just couldn’t wrap my head around sitting in front of the computer for an hour doing this webinar.  I did cruise through the website before I left the company and I was less than impressed – seems these days to find a job one has to become a Marketing Guru/Narcissist. Ugh.  For those of us who are more humble and unwilling to turn into a 20-Something Millennial, this is going to prove to be very difficult.  I am 37 yrs old, I have 18 years working experience under my belt doing all realms of administrative/clerical and some sales work, I have both a BA and an MBA, I truly don’t think I need to “brand” myself and become that which is driving the world to a higher rate of narcissism. That’s just not me.  I don’t need to become to web celebrity to secure a job. This is truly ridiculous.

She offered to review my resume and help with interview tips, which I’ll take.  BUT these days it’s not about finding a company that matches ones ideals and in turn finding that dream career, nope these days the job market is about matching your “brand” to a company.  It’s truly been reversed and its ridiculous.

Oh and don’t even get me started on that crap website LinkedIn…has anyone truly ever had any success navigating that website?  Or is it just me?  I can’t seem to make it work for me…they want you to put ALL of your skills, talents, certifications, licensure, etc. etc. etc. etc. out there and then invite your entire address book to “network” with you, it really is just FACEBOOK for your damn resume.

Seriously people, when did this turn of events and manner of job seeking happen?  What happened to putting your resume in for a job, the hiring manager reviewing it, and then the interview – seems the pre-interview happens BEFORE your resume even hits the hiring manager’s desk…

Can we tell I am so done with the Corporate world and its Shenanigans?  The company I dedicated 5 working years to just discarded me like a piece of trash because I didn’t agree with the path they were wanting to take for my position (no I don’t know this for sure, BUT I do know the BRAND NEW finance person for our division and I didn’t get along AT ALL).  So here I am 37 yrs old, competing for jobs I could do in my sleep with these narcissistic 20-something year old millennials who’ll do the job for 1/2 the cost I am willing to take.

If I could drop many F*Bombs here I would…

Well here we are Day 4 of unemployment…

Not overly happy with my current situation, but this week I’ve just tried my best to relax and just unwind some before jumping headfirst into the job search next week…

I’ve registered with NC Works, filed for unemployment, and have gone on one interview at a staffing agency, the rest of the week I’ve spent creating fun and awesome crochet stuff, hitting the gym and sleeping! Hee Hee guess that’s a good way to spend a vacation week, no?

Oh I have also scheduled my COPAT (Corr. Officer Physical Agility Test) with the Dept of Corrections, that’s scheduled for 11/19, giving me ample time to prepare for it.  There’s a lot of physical work I need to put in to get 100% ready for it, my trainer has offered to help me in any way she can, so I am just doing what I can on my own and will incorporate into my workouts what she suggests.

Next week, I jump in full force, taking my turn looking for work in the afternoon, going to the gym, and planning Girl Scout meetings for my Brownies’ badge work, all the while also working on fun crochet stuff – see a theme here?! LOL!!!

Anyhew, tomorrow my severance, bonus, and vacation time payout hit my bank account, so we’ll be living on that money for awhile, next week we also have to go to DSS to submit more paperwork for the kids’ Health Choice and see about bumping up our food stamp monthly allotment from $258/month, to more now we’re down to just two Unemployment Incomes per month instead of one + a salary.

Figured I’d drop in an update…nothing really earth shattering has happened since I walked out of my office for the last time last week…can’t turn my work brain off though…really hoping the replacement is doing what she’s supposed to, and that my poor co-worker they had me cross train isn’t dealing with her too much…will send her an email tonight to say hey and check-in…can’t just shut-off five years…

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I put this on Facebook just a few minutes ago

“Severance Letter coming today…this is really happening…ugh I don’t know why but I was kind of hoping my company would realize the error of their ways and ditch this chick who is totally UNFIT for the job and keep me…but alas, not happening…it’s all for the better right?
Let’s just hope we don’t end up homeless and living on the streets with 5-furbabies…that scares me more than anything.”

The amount of fear building up inside of me is insurmountable…I am so worried about what’s going to happen with us, our kids, our furbabies, and everything in between.  With Friday being my last day – and my replacement being completely inept I am just hopeful that there’s a bigger reason behind all of this.

My husband hasn’t had an interview or a bite on his resume in a couple of weeks.

I am going to a staffing agency next week…but the likelihood of something coming out of that is nll…my pay scale is a lot higher than what they’d be able to offer me, right now my minimum is $17.00/hr.  And anyone who is hiring for an Admin in my area is going to be offering a minimum of $8.00/hr capping out at $12.00/hr, which with the amount of experience I have is an absolute INSULT! Ugh…

So with that being said…let’s let the anxiety attack happen!

We’re behind on EVERYTHING except Banfield for Sadie, Gold’s Gym, and State Farm which are all on Auto-Draft from our bank account – we’re on shut-off from the electric company, we paid 1/2 of our past due balance for AT&T yesterday, sure CFPUA will be sending us a shut-off notice at some junction too…we have to eat as well…ugh ugh ugh…

ANXIETY

ANXIETY

ANXIETY